Casting down everything thought......

Greetings and God Bless you all. For those of you who do not know my testimony I haven't had the easiest life, but then again who has.....I wont go into the whole ordeal or even certain events that has lead me into a constant battle I seem to come to more times than not. But I will say that past sin and even present sin has me up at night, has me distracted, has me out of focus and has me stressed and just weary at times. I have been leaning on Psalm 25 for a good part of a year now. I quote it, I pray it, I read it, I sing it, I say it, I breathe it. If I could roll it up in a blanket and sleep with it I probably would at this point.!! :) "To you O Lord I lift up my soul, O my God I trust in you" That very verse is enough for me to just feel my need for him, "Show me your ways, O Lord, teach me your paths" I want to know God's ways and forget my own. My struggle is that with full intention and zeal and thrill and passion and excitement and love for God, I am in a battle of the mind. Not a condemned battle that I believe that I am not who God says I am but I have memories, flash backs, mind scars I would call them, that I just cant shake, and through prayer and the word I deal, but this is not an easy thing to live with especially when you feel as though these times have come and gone and had plenty of time to heal, mend, get over etc. But at last I am still burdened by the thoughts and distractions of past sins, I picture events, hear words, go through different times. I know that the Lord is faithful, but I am not. I am but dust and am still being molded and shaped by God.

"Casting down imaginations, and ever high thing that exalts itself against the knowledge of God, and bringing every thought into captivity to the obedience of Christ." 2 Corinthians 10:5

My prayer request would be for define intervention spiritually, that my thoughts would become his and not my own, that I wouldn't admit defeat when my mind has wondered all day but instead pick up my cross and continue on, "Jesus is my model and my example by which my soul and body shall crawl for my weak legs to stand up and stand firm in the wonders that is him"-Deena.

Thank you all for your prayers and you encouragement, Love you all!! Have an awesome week!!!!!! :)